“”My First Attempt,was my Last Attempt”

Have you ever felt like you couldn’t go on? Felt like you wanted to give up? Or felt like you wanted to end it all?

Well your not alone!!There was a time in my life where I felt like this and no matter what people said to me I just still wanted to give up.I felt useless and alone.I felt like no one understood me or accept how I was feeling.This was an “Dark stage” in my life I called it.

I know I’m not the only person who has felt like this.Sometimes I feel like I’m the only person who speaks on what I went through.Let me just say I don’t want to relive a time like that again.

At that time in my life I wanted to end it all.Yes take my own life and leave all my worries behind me.I at the time thought it was the best thing to do for me and the people around me because it seemed they didn’t care anyway.No I was wrong not only was I wrong but I was stupid for even getting my self to that point.I don’t regret that time in my life.

It opened up my eyes to so many things like my relationship with God and how nothing was gonna work out for me unless I put God first.With going through that I’ve also learned to speak to others who are at a point like that and let them know that is not the way to solve your problems.We all go through things in life not because we want to but because we have to.Its okay to feel alone at times sometimes that’s God’s way of saying “Talk to me, tell me what your thinking “.Don’t ever get yourself to the point I was at, if you feel yourself leading that way talk to someone.Tell them how your feeling and ask them to get you help.

“Believe in Your Dream”

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Hello My Fellow Bloggers !!Of those who don’t know I am an college student I’m in my junior Year of College.I started off at an community college because I knew I was ready to go off to a four year university right out of high school.Although most would have said I wouldn’t know until I went ,I knew what was best for me.I was also at a stage where I was trying to get through losing my father and trying to take care of my mom who was sick.I lived in the fear of leaving and not coming back to my mom being here.That was one thing over time of had to get out of my head and face the reality that we all have to go someday that’s is just in God’s control.Also after talking to my mom about what path I wanted to take and her supporting it made me feel a lot better.

I love going to school sometimes.Then it’s some days I wake up and wonder why I continue to go to school when it’s not getting me where I want to be now.I’ve learned that I’m not the only person who feels this way at times.I’ve also learned that the road to success takes time and patience.

I am where God wants me to be.As I look back on my journey I see growth in myself.A growth that brings Joy upon my face showing that I came a long way.Who would have known God would put me through so many trials and tribulations.Im pushing on no matter what I hoping that one day I can build a foundation for woman and girls to speak out on situations that I’ve been through and I know other woman like me been through.The foundation will be built to make woman and girls grow and also learn to feel comfortable in their own skin.I feel like that’s one of the things God has picked me to do.I’m currently working on my book I know it’s gonna take time.I hope to have my book done by the beginning of next year that would be my Birthday Gift to Myself.Im also hoping that my Blogs are inspire those out there in any type of way.I feel like my job is being done when I know I helped someone out there with some encouragement.I want to make name for myself and if it takes up majority of my time so be it.I have plans to go to New York to Journey out of my comfort zone also to make great things happen there.I have a Dream I’m now trying to put it in to Action. I’ve been working on getting some internships to get me started.The process is not easy at all but I know it will be worth it.I love to write and I know my future is in writing.I have so many ideas as when it comes to writing whether it’s a book or even movies .Im not giving up guys I’m gonna keep exploring different fields in writing.Im thankful I have my Family and a few friends that support my dreams and push me to keep going.With prayer and faith I know that one Day I will get where I’m going.

“The Friendship of God”

A friendship can be built on trust and love.
Not just in second or in minutes.
A good friendship is sky the limits
But it takes two to make it there
Having moment and memories you will always share.
Cries and smiles are also a part of it
Like sharing a birthday cake with candles forever lit
A person who you let into your life to stay
A person who helps you find a way out of no way
But I know someone like that who never left
He’s high above the clouds putting me through all these test .
Never more but always less
A lesson learned I mean he is forever our God and our King.

“He’ll Never leave you just know he’s always there.You may not know it but God is an Forever God who will be by your side when no One else is.Live through him and he will never Forsake You.”

God only makes one You,so Accept who you Are.

Hey You!! yes You reading this Look in the Mirror!! Now that person staring back at you is Beautiful I know you may think that you may have flaws you wish to get ridge of. Well guess what you don’t you are beautiful just the way God has create you.

Who cares who doesn’t accept it because your approval is the only one that matters.We have to learn to love ourselves before anyone else can love us.Don’t find what’s wrong with you embrace what God has blessed you with.Don’t keep tearing yourself down because someone doesn’t like something about you, that their own insecurities they need to deal with.We are not prefect but we have to learn to accept and love our imperfections.Once you able to love who you are you will be able to be happy with the person you are. Self love is the best love a person can have.

Remember That!!!

It’s A New Year ,Stop Holding on to Baggage

Move On!!
I know most people don’t like change.Well guess what I didn’t like change neither.But Change is apart of our journey of living whether we like it or not.Without some type of change on our lives things wouldn’t progress the way their suppose to.

The change I’m talking about is moving on and letting go of that unwanted baggage.We all have it in our lives.Baggage I’m preferring to is People who no longer deserve your time and energy ,but we some how still hold on to them.It’s hard I know to let those people go.But that’s one part of change we have to accept.

It’s a saying I hear very often “Some people you just have to love from a far”And that being said is you can still care about them and love them but that doesn’t mean that you need them in your life.I myself struggle with this but its a process and a change ,that made my life a lot less stressful.No one wants to move on from something their use to doing or even someone who they always had in their life, but these are a few question you should ask yourself when you make that decision.

What meaning does that person have in my life?

Is that person for me or for what I’m doing?

What’s the good they done to me ?and does it outweigh the bad?

Does this person make me happy?

Did I change myself to make this person care for me or love me?

These are a few question you should think about not only with a person you in a relationship with but with every single person in your life.It will help you Move On and also get ridge of that Baggage you no longer should be carrying.

“You Ask,I Tell”

Did you always want to become a writer growing up?

Growing up I actually wanted to be an Fashion Designer. I know nothing about designing no type of clothes. I seen that so many people wanted to do it so I changed my mind. I would always write and I felt like my writing would get me a further career in my life.

What lead you to write?

My mother lead me to writing she loved to write. She encouraged me to continue to write no matter what.She told me my writing would get me a long way if I stayed dedicated to it.I would write all the time in school and my teachers would also encourage me to stick to writing in the future.

What Is Your Favorite Type of Writing?
Any writing that catches my attention. I’m for all types of writing I read to get a message and be inspired by the author.I love all kinds of writing .

What’s your Motivation?
My motivation,hmm lets see I would have to say my attitude for being successful and inspire those out there with my story.Also helping others with my gift to write.I want to make a name for myself and I’m gonna keep pushing no matter what.I want to help people on my way up to the top.

Society Today Age doesn’t make you any Better

Mom: Is it me ?or have you noticed how rude some people are
Me: yes, I did a especially the Old people.
Mom: Yeah ,Like the ones Older than me
Me: I know they don’t say Thank you or excuse me

This was a conversation between Me and my Mother who was really concerned about our society and how not only the younger generation but the older generation as well has become just ignorant.I know I am not the only one who has noticed this. I feel like people are forgetting the values of respect.

The saying “treat others the way you would like to be treated” is a saying that goes a long way but people fail to live up to it. I don’t know if that is just the way some are people ¬†bought up but it is not right at all. But in my opinion I think people should be more considerate about others and treating others just plain “Ignorant”.

Our society especially the older generation should think more about our values as Human Being. We are one and we should act as one when it comes to dealing with each other.Respect will get you a long way remember to use it.